Sunday, July 31, 2011

Make a wish!

            It's been a while now since i posted something.The time just passed by i guess...My schedule was pretty full,so to say;I've been busy going to weddings,visiting the country side,having my birthday..Ha!How about that?I just turned 18 few days ago.Most of the people celebrate this age with enthusiasm,they prepare and make plans few months before,they get big parties where they invite all their friends...but not me,I refused to do any of that stuff.Some people would say I'll regret that latter on,and maybe they're right.Maybe I will regret it,maybe I'll wish I would've partied hard and invited lots of people and so on..but right now it doesn't feel that way.I'm not happy nor sad about becoming eighteen,I'm careless (don't know if that's the right word..hope you get what I mean).So what if I'm eighteen?Now I can drink legally,I can go to strip clubs,I can get a driving license (which I am,just signed up for the driving school ^_^) but with all that comes something else...now I am responsible for my actions!I'm supposed to be a grownup now,or to start being one,and that's ok cause I've been waiting for this my whole life and now I got it.The question is:what if I won't like it?Becoming a grownup,being a grownup?I'm sure I've heard this many times "It's the journey that matters,not the destination".We,or I..rush for the destination and not enjoy the journey,the bad thing is that I'm aware of it but I keep doing it.That's just who I am.
This post turned out to be something else than what I was going for,guess I got caught up in the moment.Have a good night bloggers =]

Friday, July 15, 2011

Decisions decisions

How can a person know which decision was the right one?How could one know,left would've been better than right?As since you chose to go one way,the other way is unknown.Is it possible that left was better than right?Yes.Can you know if that possibility verifies to be true?No.You can only assume.People usually tend to assume they made the wrong choice when something goes bad,it's the human nature to blame and question your own decisions,but it's wrong.My point is,overthinking your actions and choices is pointless,you made a choice,you took an action,you made a decision..live with it!Cause in the end,all those decisions you've made your whole life,lead you to where you are right now.Some might take that the wrong way,cause if they're in a crappy situation right now they'll blame themselves...that's not right,cause tomorrow their whole situation might change,so I ask you..were all those bad decisions?Some might not get it,some might take it the wrong way,but I trust some will understand what I'm saying here.All I know is,I've been fascinated by this my whole life.Everytime I must take a decision I think about it for a bit,but then I stop and tell myself "Go with it fool!You might just be happy in the end".I hope someone agrees with me,and remember "Good things might come,to those who wait!"

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Observing,and being observed

Sometimes I sit at the window on my balcony (I live in a 10 stores flat,on the 6th level) watching the city.I do that night or day,doesn't matter.During day I listen to the 'citys noise'..an ambulance here,a truck's big noisy horn there,sometimes just the small cars with their noisy engines.Sometimes I can hear some loud music coming from far away,probably from some teenagers apartment..or so I tend to believe.There is tho,a moment when it's really quiet even during day...sometime between 3 and 4 o'clock.It's actually so quiet that you can hear the wind whistling while it passes thru the small number of trees around the flats.I love that little moment of the day when even the streets around me are empty.It gives me shivers,most of the time.When the night falls,when most of the people go to sleep in their tiny apartments,that is when the silence falls upon the city.So I stand there,watching the dark streets (as far as I can see from my balcony of course ) and listening to the quiet of the night.Now and then a lost soul passes by on the dark street,coming home from a meeting,or a date,or a party..or maybe he just went out for a walk,the beauty is that,you never know!you can only assume and imagine..take a guess!Sometimes I'm the lost soul 'haunting' the streets,searching for an answer..and I like to believe there's someone else watching me from their balcony,standing there,in the dark,watching me as I get close just to slowly fade again on the dark alleys.

Good night dear city,good night citizens!

Monday, July 11, 2011

My addiction

I've spent the last 36 hours inside..of which 8 I've slept,and the rest were spent watching Prison Break.I just started this one,and I have to say I'm a tv-serials addict.I'm updated with the latest episode on 20 different serials and every time I finish one,I just randomly start watching another..I don't know why I do it,maybe its to get distracted from reality.*God it's so hot I can't even write my thoughts down..* I'ma stop this post here..I just can't find my words.It's like 40 degrees...

Saturday, July 09, 2011

Artist: Teagan White
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She's a real artist with innovative ideas.The moment I've seen this I fell in love with her art <3

Thursday, July 07, 2011

A fantasy?maybe.A purpose in life?definetly

As the Sun is eaten by the great blue sea,his sister Moon comes in to play,and so the darkness of the night fills in shadows,in every corner of the old wooden house.Meanwhile,a boy lays in bed hoping to fall asleep.His only desire,all that he wishes for is to just fall asleep.Cause he knows he'll see her again once he's asleep;that girl that keeps appearing in his dreams,that girl who yet he doesn't know she seems so familiar,warm and nice.He knows she's not real,he knows he can't just live in a dream but the feeling he has when he's with her,even inside a dream is something that no one ever felt before..not even him.They walk together thru deep forests just holding hands,they sit on the beach and their bare feet feel the cold sand,and they feel it as one.Their souls are so in sync that even the tiniest feeling is shared by both.If you ask him to describe her,he can't..cause only while asleep he knows her,only then they meet,only then they share feelings,emotions and thoughts.In the morning,all he has left of her is a feeling,a warm and nice feeling,like all that time he was sleeping he was home,he was in that place we all hope for,the place we all dream about finding,that place where you just feel you fit in and you never have nor desire to leave.Who is that girl,and how does she do that,how does she make him feel like that?.It's been like this for some time,it's been like this for so long he can't even remember when did all this start.His only purpose ever since was finding her while still awake.He travels around with nothing but hope for his success of finding 'the girl from his dreams' .


Note: I find it a must to excuse myself if I'm being a bit sloppy with my writing.I'm still new to this so don't judge too harsh.It felt natural to write it tho..

Wednesday, July 06, 2011

It's amazing how a good day can turn around in just two minutes,amazing how one of those terrible fights(argues) root from the smallest argues.It is almost like your brain has an anger button that just turns on in a second,sometimes for no good reason and you just 'rage'.If i didn't knew any better I'd say it's the primal instinct that does that,that old part of the brain that goes back billions of years to the time when Earth was populated by cavemen...I bet they did the same just for different reasons (survival?).How does one control that,and use it by freewill whenever he wants?I believe it would change a lot of things if we could,indeed,control that 'rage' that lays inside  all of us.And right now i have the impression i think too much...maybe i should keep it simple and stop having all these messed up thoughts about everything =]

Saturday, July 02, 2011

Once again it's 'the end of the day' and i feel like i pressed the fast forward button on my life's remote,just as i woke up.Maybe it's just that I'm not doing anything important with my life,even though i have lots of things that i would like to do,i never do any...that's one of my bad sides i guess,i start things or think about starting but i never actually do what i intend to.Some would say I'm just being lazy..and maybe they're right,but i think it's not just that..it can't be!It's been like this for so long now,that i don't even remember the way it used to be when i 'pressed the play button' instead of the 'fast forward'..and I'm just afraid I'll wake up old and look back at myself,back when i was still young,back to the present in which I'm writing this,and I'll just regret i lived my life this way.I keep telling myself it's all gonna change soon..i will grow up,get a job,work on a career,maybe have a wife (I'm not very keen on the kids part right now),but then a doubt pops out of the darkness;that 'what if' that keeps me from falling asleep and pops up as a first thought just as i wake up.I do realize I'm just whining right now so pardon me please..I'm just being one of those regular teenagers with their regular problems,which is a good thing i guess..better than being a weirdo with real problems =] .Now it's time for me to continue my randomness:surfing,playing or watching random stuff over internet ^_^.But i will leave you with the song I'm  listening to,right now: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N6O2ncUKvlg

Dave Rapoza's Art



I don't believe there's people that don't know about Ninja Turtles,we all loved them when we were kids didn't we.These are just a part of his "creations" and the way he made them look almost vicious and beastly says alot about him as an artist.The artist lives in Boston ,Massachusetts along with his girlfriend Chelsea.You can find more of his art on his own  Blogg

Friday, July 01, 2011

The first post

I'm not sure why i did this,why did i make myself a blogg..that's probably cause i felt like writing(typing) some of my thoughts down.I apologise if my english is abit rusty here and there,i'm not an american nor english,yet i choose to use this language cause it feels easyer to express myself for some reason.

I uhmm,i don't know exactly what other people post on their bloggs so i'll just do as i feel.Anywho..today is the 1st of July,more than 2 weeks of the summer holiday have passed by,yet i just dont know WHEN this happened..(what have i been doing for the past 2 weeks?) it's all blurry when i try to remember,i lost track of 'time' so to speak.But that isn't all i've lost in these 2 weeks;i've lost friends,friendships,past crushes and now i have a new set of feelings but for the same  "old" person,and these feelings are different from any other..they're happy and sad feelings at the same time which makes me  feel confused..what happened,when did i start being so "sentimental" is it the summer,or maybe the lack of ocuppation during summer..or maybe i was like this ever since i was born,i just didn't notice it.Reading this out loud,it seems like it's not me the one who wrote it..but what the hell,that's in my head so it must be me.I'm not sure if anyone will even read this but ohwell..
Song of the day: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XiFn5wUfaik